Charli and Kids

On my mind

2012-01-16T18:48:00.000-08:00

Couple of things been on my mind.

Just a few things that have been on my mind as of late, One I have notice the large amount of people who starting their own photography business or side business as of late and I am wondering why that is. Could this be the newest trend in home businesses or does the saying go Photographers are a dime a dozen at this rate more like a penny. I am not saying that people should not pursue there goals it just seem like a very big trend going on.

Second thing that really been on my mind as of late is all the negative that goes on. I notice this in my life and I am not sure if all lot going on else where too. Here of late every thing I do is wrong or incorrect choice , and many of my close friends and family keep reminding me.
My choice on the type of Doctor I am seeing to treat my back problems for one. Every one that I have talk to with a very few exceptions and I mean few like two suggest that the doctor I am seeing only making things worst and I should go see a specialist, but isn't I who knows my body the best can only decide if the treatment making it worst. My thought is no I did not get better over night , no he did not just give me pain killers and muscle relaxers and tell me to go see another Doctor. Does this doctor listen to me ? yes is he taking time to help my body heal even though it not taking over night. I like to think of it this way he fixing the problem not covering it up with medication like so many like to do.
I have seen my mom let shoot her up with drugs that will mess other things up and then when it gets really bad surgery is the only option. No thanks
Other things besides my choice of doctor, our choice of putting the kids in karate, where we put them in karate at seriously, if I take them out they do not get enough exercise outside of school, our schedule does not allow all lot of family time, we've made great friends through the program. Do we have complaints about things sometimes.
I swear every time I turn around someone saying something neg to me or about my choices, To tell you the truth I can't remember when someone said anything good about anything I have done.
Negativity spread like a virus it time to make it stop and it so very easy . Do speak anything neg and start telling people positive things.

past year

2011-12-31T16:26:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since I posted anything , perhaps I thought I had nothing worth while to post.
Most of my stuff ends up on face book and since I only have one main reader here I thought why post it twice.
Today is New years Eve just less then 12 hours away from a new year!
I thought that I might reflect on what has happen this pasted year.
I what comes to memory first is my Uncle Dave passing away this year on Mothers Day. Many of us knew that it was only a matter of time before he was going to leave us, but no ones guess was how.
Andy for the past year had been going over to my uncle house on some what of a daily basis to help my uncle with some personal care needs, in return Andy found a friend someone he could talk to. They became close friends. Two days before Mothers Day ( which is also Dessa Birthday) My Uncle took Andy, Sebastian and Shannon my cousin husband out to the D-backs game for a guys night out, While us girls had a girls evening. A day after late in the even my uncle was taken to Mayo ER. He passed early morning on Mothers day. He's still watching over his family and us since.

In September we took the kids to San Diego for a Karate tournament and a mini Family vacation.
With the help of family and good friends saving bottles and cans for the kids to recycle the money they saved help go towards the tournament. While there we got to experience a power blackout and many other fun things.
We had fun taking the kids to the beach and playing in the water even though it was icy cold.
The tournament was also a fun experience to see how other states runs The kids took third in most of there events. What a learning experience we had,we hope to go again next year.

Other than these to big events in or life, we have experience a multitude of car issue and some minor health problems mainly me. Our jobs we dealt with many quick changes including transferring to a new building , the department buy out and now we patiently await to see if we got hire on with the new company.

2011-09-04T14:36:00.000-07:00

What's New with us?

Let's see...The kids are back to school thank the goddess! Seb is in fourth grade wow I know it feels just like only yesterday he was just starting school. This year he gets to do Orchestra he really want to due band but we ran into a small snag, We thought to get him into music and really learning what it all takes that starting with orchestra was the way to go. He picked out the cello and was one of the few that was able to get an school instrument the only snag here is he had to agree to play all three years . I am good with it I will jus seek out side help for band maybe if he willing I can teach him the Saxophone. In just a short few months he will be turning ten double digits.

Odessa is now a 2nd grader and she also has new changes this year. She cut her hair! She went from this .....

To This....

it's just too darn cute and so much easier on me.

Karate is going well since siging them up we have seen all lot of Changes in the kids there is still all lot of room for growth her and I am waiting for the day when it all Clicks. As of now the kids are Purple belts and soon to be Blue this means half way to Black. We have alot of tournaments coming up and Invite everyone to come attend. Coming up is this weeking in San Diego yeah a force Vacation!
Soon after October 1st there one in Phoenix civic center and then October 29th and In school this one ais Free to all specators....

My beautiful birthday girl

2011-05-10T21:57:00.000-07:00

A girls night. On Thursday of Last week we had a girls night out while the boys went to the D-back game. Dess , me Aunt Jamie and Great aunt Jan and little miss Carlin. We had dinner at the Claim jumper, then went birthday shopping Dess got to pick out two outfits on her own, She was so Happy.
Before heading out I put her hair up and we did make up and painted her nails. Then while we waited for our ride I snapped a few pictures. She was a little disappointed she didn't get to go with the boys to the game,but we had a great time.
It's hard to believe my little girl is now 7 and has 3 boyfriends so she says..

On this day May 8th 2011

2011-05-08T22:58:00.000-07:00

Bringers of life, Celebration of life and the End of life.

Today May 8th 2011 we celebrate mothers who have brougth life into this world and set aside things to make sure the wells being of their children. My grandmother had four children and raised them on less then what many of us make in a month. My mother raised me the best she could with not much of any guidance her mother passed away when she was young. Being a mother now myself I set aside things that I once thought was important and a must. The most important thing to me is my children's health and well being and if I have to sacrifice things to do so I do. Today is the one day we set aside to honor our mothers hard work and dedication

My hard work and dedication brings on the Celebration of Life. My daugther has made it see the age of seven, any other time I could take this day for granted , but after this weekend events I realize that each day we are given is a PRESENT and we should try to make the best of each day there are so many things that can happen to a person that even the healthest person can not fore see the day there time is up. So many things could of happen to my daught between the day she was born to today. Seven yrs old is young but it is Amazing. I scoffed turing 32 but hey I have manage to survive 32 yrs with out any near death experince . As we celebrate the birthday of my daugther we also are sadden by the lost of another.

My uncle pasted away this morning, it still seems to be a bit sureal to me. This did not come as a shocker in fact he was very lucky to have lived this long. I believe he knew his time was coming to an end. Every day was a challenge for him and everyday he pursued his goals. My uncle was a great man, hard at times but help thoes in need. Life goes on and we must live each day no matter what life throws our way to the best of our ability to not do so would not honor him.

BW ten min's from Home challenge

2011-04-07T19:53:00.000-07:00

I found this photo forum they have challenges for all levels, The one I enter was the BW. Ten min from home.The challenge here is to walk, drive, bike anywhere that is ten min from home and take a BW picture. This is what I entered

Before and afters

2011-04-06T11:47:00.000-07:00

The Picture on the left was taken almost yr ago, Dessa was posing to show off her new birthday clothes, The Picture on the Right is the same picture just edited by the Photo shop express.
I love her expression! Reminds me of one of her favorite expressions " Oh..... my........ goodness!"

This is was taken almost 2yrs ago and unfortunately I can't up load the original photo before I added layers and tints, So you can't tell the difference.

This is the original photo, below is the same photo but Black N White

Here is the same photo but now I have messed with the light and highlights in photo shop I also added a filter and change lip and eye color looks like a completely different picture

Here is the same picture just different filters applied in my opinion it's looks different too..

Hands

2011-03-28T21:19:00.000-07:00

This was just something I took with my camara phone

Self portrait

2011-03-27T19:57:00.000-07:00

ok I am giving this a try.

This is the most recent self portrait and I had to dig through my archives

FOCUS

2011-03-17T17:32:00.000-07:00

FOCUS

The past eight week in karate the life skill was learning how to focus. Paying attention to what I am doing. This is one of the reasons we signed the kids up. They needed to learn how to pay attention to what they are doing and the things around them.

I just love this photo, if really does capture the moment and for once he was focus at what he was doing and not every one else around him.

I think we all could use a little more focus in our lives.

Random Photos from my Phone Friends

2011-03-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

Random photo from my phone,
This random photo is from a friend of ours that was part of our wedding party.
We haven't seen or been in touch with this certain friend or ours for almost four years. The last time we had seen him and his family he had short hair and his wife had long hair and their second child was barely born.
We stumble across our friend and now he looks like Jack sparrow and his wife is the one with short hair their oldest girl is in high school and there baby girl in and year and a half older then Sebastian.

My best friend, my soul mate, my love...

2011-03-08T18:55:00.000-08:00

Random Photo: 6
My best friend, my soul mate, my love...

What better why to describe this wonderful man that is in my life. I met him back in junior high. My first impression of him was who is this Hill billy sitting in our living room. He was wearing overalls one side strap hanging down a baseball cap and he had one huge hole in the crotch of his pants.
After getting to know him better I realized he was a fun person to be around. We would talk on the phone for hours over nothing. When his family would come over we would hangout on the side yard and play soccer .
I went with him to his senior prom and had a horrible time because he didn't want to be there. His mom made him go. I was there for him when his dad died. He was one of my best friends then he graduated and when into the Navy.
Two years later he went with me to my senior prom, one because he felt he owed it to me , but ended up enjoying himself and actually was glad he went, it was the night he said he fell in love wit me.

Couple of years later he broke my heart, but made up for if later when he realized what a big jerk he was.
Next I knew we where moving into an apartment together and three years later we got married.
This man I never can stay mad at too long and he still can make me laugh.

Photo5

2011-03-08T16:32:00.000-08:00

I don't have much to post so I thought I will do random photos post until I have got something interesting to post. So I am just picking pictures at random don't even know what it is till it's been down loaded.

Random photo#5

Hi dessa this is from the Kids first in school tournament back in October when they were white belts. Not too long ago.
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Random Photo: 4

2011-03-07T16:49:00.000-08:00

Random Photo: 4
An over exposed picture of Sebastion this was about a yr and half ago and I think I have better picture , but since this is just a random photo. I always have to bribe him to sit for pictures and the bribe is I let him take a few of his own pictures with my camera. I just love this kid of mine.

Random Photo's

2011-03-07T16:45:00.000-08:00

Random Photo: #3 Andrea's Family pictures I did two years ago. This one I played around with my cartoon effect. Not bad for a newbie starting out with a crappy camera.

Random Photos from my Phone

2011-03-06T23:58:00.000-08:00

Random Photo : 2
This photo is one of my first photos I took almost 3yrs ago. WOW! that means Dessa was just maybe 3yrs and Seb was 5.
The bear is very special to me. Andy got me this bear when we were dating. I have since past the bear down to the kids.I think one of the very first pictures I took of sebastian was with this bear.

Random Photos from my Phone

2011-03-06T23:52:00.000-08:00

Random Photo : 1

This was in the car on the way to the kids first weapon seminar back in November. I just love how goofy my kids can be. When I am overly stressed out they do something like this which always brings a smile to my heart.

Simple things I miss

2011-03-06T20:19:00.000-08:00

What I miss..

I know that it does no one any good to dwell on the past , but it keeps you from moving forward in life, but I just can't seem to help missing certain things in my life.

Missing the same as dwelling? perhaps it depends on the perspective. I have been wanting to blog on the things in my life I miss for a while now, but I kept setting it off cause I did not want to sound One ungrateful for the things I have in my life now . Second I did not want to dwell on these things either. My mind just keeps bugging me to write down the things I miss, perhaps it will help me let go and move and the thought will stop crawling through my head.

I miss having a house, not the part of owning a house that was nice too, to be able to call something your very own. Be able to paint a room hot pink if the feeling strikes you without having to get permission from the owners. But it's not really even that what I miss about the house. I miss having the extra room, room for all of my everyday items to accessible and put in to place, not crammed into some type of storage or sold because there no room. A kitchen where all my kitchen gadgets had a place and room to cook or bake if I wanted too. Not having to move things from one spot to another so I can just make a sandwich.

I miss hanging out on the porch and having fires with family and friends and most of all I miss being so close to the kids school.

I miss being able to walk out side and seeing things up here in the city one has to look very hard to find like my little owl friends.

I miss being home with my kids, not having to worry about having enough sick time to stay home with them when they are sick. I miss being able to going to school functions during the day. I also miss the freedom I had if the urge came across I would grab the kids and go out and take pictures.
I miss walking the kids to school and having are little talks and picking the kids up. We still have our talks in the car to a from school but it not the same I can't describe on words what makes it different.
I miss be able to going places on the spur of the moment . Should I felt like going to Vegas for a weekend we did.

Simple things like having a clean and organized house, being able to have guest over because there was plenty of room or an available bathroom.

Nothing like having that second bathroom, when everyone gets up in the morning or just right after we come home from being out, it seems like every is in need of the bathroom at one time.
I use to complain that I never get a moment peace even when I had to use the bathroom one of my kids would walk in on me. Having one bathroom available is worst one can not even take shower with out sharing the room. I use to be able to do that.

I like being close to my family, I like my job but it just seems more and more I miss what I had. I know I could have a few of these things again and perhaps in time when the timing right I might be able to have them all again.

I miss being able to just take the car and going somewhere on my own, I can't do that now that we only have the one car. I have to make sure it's not needed before I go anywhere.

One more thing I Miss, I miss my computer and my old photoshop program. I wish I has room in our place to put up my old dino of a computer.

What a Busy week !!

2011-01-09T20:56:00.002-08:00

What a Busy week !!

It's Sunday evening the kids are in bed and things are set in motion for Monday. Where did the weekend go? Where all other weekends go the time wrap.

Ever notice how the weekends just fly bye and here's Monday knocking at your door and you realized that you didn't even make a dent in your weekend plans.

This week is full, we have the kids leadership class on Monday. I love going to their Karate classes each class is so different. Leadership is great! the kids are learning Key virtues. This week is Enthusiasm. Last week was Respect, through the takewando they are learning to be good leaders. Plus they get more exercise then they do in school. Last months was Aeriel arts so they got to use the trampoline and learning the XMA1 form which they get to change up and use for their creative forms. I just can't wait.

Tuesday : Regular karate class they are working very hard on the forms and one steps that they will be doing for the State tournament in less then a week. Plus the creative weapons forms.
The kids have really change since they started taking takewando. Sebastian more focus and has more patients, and confidence. He actually put something together all by himself by using the instructions. In the past he use to loose patience.

Wednesday :Dessa been ask to do a demo for a girl scout group this week, which we are very excited that even consider her. They say for her age she has got great focus and determination, We think she going to be the next raising star there.
Also parent teacher conference at the kids school .

Thursday and Friday: Regular class and competition classes. The kids went to their first competition class last week. The instructors go over what going to happend and what to be expected for the new comers also helping the kids get use to proforming infront of others on their own. The two main rules for the tournament : Have fun and make a new friend.
Also this week Andy and I have a class to attend to since we offered to help out at the tournament.

Also happening this month is the kids belt promotion JAN 19 they will be testing for their Yellow belts, and two new weapon forms. I just can't wait.

Andy will be signing up for the Adult classes this week as well, with as much time we spend there we might as well start looking for a house close to the school.

People ask is everything about karate? The answer is yes right now in our crazy lives it;s a bit of
structure and discipline we need in our lives.

Counting the days when I get to join

Other things happening this month: I am proud to say that I completed One year At ACS! which is something i have not manage to do in a long time. The longest I kept a job in the past 3 years was six months. I had a few scary moments where I thought I was going to loose my job do to all the time off I was needing due to my health issuses.

We also are planning a short overnight trip to Globe to go Ghost hunting which sound like fun.

New Year

2011-01-09T20:48:00.001-08:00

A new year !

Self this year is going to be different, I plan on actually making a dent on that list I have got going. You know that one that you posted on your white board in your room that you look at every day. Yep that one!

This year we are going to get things in order so we can Go on Vacation While the kids are still young enough to enjoy it with us.

This year we are going to make it a step further into getting into shape, we have a plan now lets make it happen.

This year we will find a bigger place one with TWO bathrooms so the boys don't have to go water the big tree outside.

So Okay self we can do this and we have a plan lets not let anything get in our way this year :)

Hey Wait is it Mom's Vacation time ??

2010-12-09T23:03:00.000-08:00

Out of order..

That what should be stamped on the front of my face

I have just been so busy that the house work has piled up on me, The kids complaining that they have no clean clothes, hey I ask them to let me know when there getting low on pants and such

Andy upset that I don't have the free time to work on his tattoo's . Hey I am only one person here!

This mom is ready for a break......on top of it all I manage to snag some new up to date family pictures

There are just to many to post. I can' t post them to FB yet since this is going to be one of our presents to the family two years worth of photo's in an album no less..

Where Have I been ?

2010-12-09T22:25:00.000-08:00

Where oh Where have I been ?

Well let see most of my free time is being spent taking the kids to their Taekwando classes, since they have now advance to the orange belt level and also was promoted to two new classes. Master club is where they are learning Sang ja Bongs ( ok this is not how there are spelled but how you pronounce the names) Koren for nun chucks ok. Then they have Leaderships classes where they are learning to be confident and well leaders as well as Xtreme Martial arts. This class is fun and full of all lot the kids have to work on, like push ups hand stands and much more, so when we are not in class we are out practicing. They are going up to five days a week right now. We are getting ready for their first official tournament in Jan 22, which Andy and I both signed up to help. We just can't wait!

in fact the kids seem to be having so much fun we want to join, but I am waiting for after the holidays and after we find out whats wrong with our car

This is the October Belt promotion White, Orange Yellow Belts

Then when we are not out practicing with the kids and I am not at home trying to get this caught up there we have been out helping family..

Plus there is work and kids school to tend to.

Crazy times and just when I have time to sit down at my computer it stops working again...

On top of all this we have been trying to visit with friends, but I still have to tie in work I have got a list of tattoos to do and I have been out doing photos yet again.

So here are a few of my Favorite pictures that I have done

Carlyn in her pretty pink birthday dress

Carlyn's turning one in December and my cousin wanted pictures of her in her christmas dress this one is the best one.. It's not easy snapping pictures of an on the go almost one year old

One of my favorites of my cousin and her family Carlyn was just not want to be kept still in one place.

Unplanned

2010-11-07T18:20:00.001-08:00

I woke up this morning wanting to go take pictures. I've been wanting to go take new family pictures for a while now, but we have been very busy lately. Since the kids have started Karate for kids most of our time is wrap up in classes and daily practices. Andy thought it would be nice to have pictures with the kids in their set up. So after our daily practice we set out to take pictures.

The kids were not really wanting to take pictures and I had to take all lot of them. When I finally gave up I got this pose. This has to be one of the best out of the bunch and it was unplanned. The funny thing is most of the pictures that I love the most seem to be the unplanned ones.

This week is going to be a fun one, the kids will be getting their belt rank promotion on the 17th of this month(orange belt) on top of that they were offered to advance to the leadership classes. This unexpected change was a jump in the pocket book, but we feel it will pay off in the long run.

They will now be going to classes roughly five times a week and will be able to sign up for competitions.

Besides the kids I accepted a new position at work, and I am in training for the new department this week, the only scary thing is if I fail the training, will my former department take me back or will I find my self unemployed. I have high hopes on passing my training, wish me luck this week I start my live files. I am learning to process University of Phoenix Tag grants.

All Hallows Eve

2010-11-04T16:52:00.000-07:00

What a night, I was sick and felt like just staying in Bed all day but, no one would let me.We tried to carve our pumpkins the day before but all the carving knives broke on us so the kids were the only lucky ones to get there's carved.

We went over to the kids Grandpa house for some fun. My dad even took part in the fun. He dressed up as a leprechaun and scared people, while Andy was running around as the Scarecrow and Gary was the wolf man. Danny was a vampire I think.

Me I was um... the sick witch. There are no pictures of me thank goodness.

"Give me your arm for Candy!"

out of the grave yard

Birthdays, birthdays and more

2010-10-28T19:29:00.000-07:00

October is my most favorite month and for many reasons....

October next to December is one of our most busy months, not to mention the most celebrated.

Over half of my family has a birthday or something special going on in October.

One of these years I am going to have one big Mask Party to Celebrate !

I had big plans for this month but like always things happen and none of the things I was hoping to do happen. There's always next year I hope:)

not forgotten

2010-10-13T20:51:00.000-07:00

Hello my friends,

I like to start off by saying that I have not forgotten you. I have been busy with just every day life.

I have found that since going back to work over 8 months ago that I do not have the desire to spend my free time on my laptop like I use too. Since I spend eight hours in front of a computer at work the last thing I want to do is get back on one when I get home.

By the time we get home it dinner and homework and most of the time off to bed to do it all over again. Crazy how life can be so redundant and chaos at the same time.

Last month we decided to sign the kids up for Karate. So if I had any free time that was now being taken up since the kids had to be in separate classes and different time and days. Just this week Dessa was promoted to the same class as Sebastian, this will make things a bit easier for us. This weekend they are being introduce into tournaments. The kids will be getting up in front of the group and performing moves. I simply can not wait.

Beside work and the Kids school and karate we were planning to have a big ten year anniversary celebration, but unfortunately Andy got a hernia and will be in no shape to have a party, so we have to postpone.. Seems like a lot of ours plans are now getting postponed.

I am hoping that Andy will recover with no problems and have swift recovery so we can get things back on track, this will be the third surgery this year in our family.

I hope that I will have the chance to start blogging more during the next few months...

Many changes

2010-09-02T19:31:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile since I have posted here. We have had many changes in our lives, back in May we pretty much had to cut off our Internet service along with many other things.

July I had to have my gal bladder remove, and I was down and out of of work for a month while I healed. Along with this I have had to have a life change for the whole family as I learn what foods I can no longer eat.

August came with more changes as we moved twice and did not get settle into the new place until Mid August, and Andy finally got he long due promotion at work.

Here it is now September and and while we are still trying to get settle in the new place and make some adjustments. We find it strange to be back in Mesa and miss Casa Grande very much.

I now have access to the Internet and I hope to be sharing and updating more.

New friends

2010-03-31T18:28:00.000-07:00

Why I love living out here in "BFE" Casa Grande.

The past few days on my way home from picking up the kids I have been seeing what I thought was an owl sitting either on the brick fence or off in the dirt Field. Today I was off, and when I was taking the kids to school I saw the owl again.

I decided to take a walk to see if the owl was still there and if it was an owl.
So many people walk or drive pass this little guy I wonder how many of them spot the owl.

Upon walking over the the owl I found out that it was more then one, a pair , then on my way back to my house I found out there was two pair of owls in this area. They built their nest in the dirt mounds.

Say hello to my new friends

movie

2010-03-31T16:36:00.000-07:00

This is a little movie I made with some of the pictures from my dad birthday

Birthdays, baptism

2010-03-08T18:58:00.000-08:00

I have been busy with , Birthdays, baby showers and Baptism this month

My dad turned 60 in Feb, his triker group threw him a party up in Enchanto Park. We had all lot of fun and the rain stayed away.

This is my dad and his mom.

The kids got a chance to get a picture with their great grandma .

Carlin Grace baptized on 3-7-10

I am looking forward to the baby shower that, I have this month.

IT's Been a while

2010-02-08T16:00:00.000-08:00

So Christmas has come and gone and a New year has arrived! We are now looking to celebrate Love..

The past few months have been interesting ones for us. We have move into a temp, apartment, we are only staying here until school out then we plan on moving back to Tempe or somewhere around there.

I finally found a job and have been working going on my fourth week. What fun:)
I have a new cousin in the family and my Dad has found someone special in his life! He moving out of the apartment he has lived in for over 19 years...

I have found a new path to walk in life , this is new yet it feels right to me. I have learned to look at things different and see the world in a new view.. I get frustrated because this requires patience which is very hard for me.

I dont have any new pictures to post since I have lost my flash drive.

Need a good home help

2009-12-16T12:07:00.000-08:00

I have until Friday the 18 to find good home for three dogs.

Lady is about 4yr female lab

Sam is about 3yr Male German Shepard Chow mix, neutered rescued from the pound

Chewy is 3yr Chihuahua greyhound Mix, male neutered and kennel train( prefers woman)

They all have bee rescued from the pound and I really hate to send them back, there all good dogs

Coming to terms

2009-12-12T21:43:00.000-08:00

We have found a place and we are still trying to come to terms with this move.. I think it might have been easier if it could of waited another month.

I promise the kids that after we move we will put up what Christmas stuff we can.
I manage to get Andy agree to keep one of the little dogs but picking which one has been hard.
Today we started packing and it sucks I really hate packing, but it does give us a chance to clean out some stuff.
We are trying to keep a positive outlook on things now that the shock has worn off. This will give us a chance to find something better, even thought I was completely happy with what we had, but the kicker is what all we gave up to keep the house for so long. It feels like it was all a waste of time..
Oh well , we are lucky to find a place and will continue to have a roof over our head.

The kids will get to stay in school for this year and come summer time we can look for something else.. that the important part, but a part of me is still sad and also jealous of everyone else preparing for Christmas and putting up lights and shopping, which we haven't been able to do :(..

BA Humbug!!

2009-12-03T12:12:00.000-08:00

Not feeling the Christmas Cheer, but I am trying too.
Please forgive me it I am a bit Humbug about the whole Holiday season.
This year I will have Andy home to share it with and I should be happy, but to have him home we had to make some big changes...

I am still looking for a job! even after taking caregiver training, oh well..
The kids are eager to start putting up the Christmas decor and yet we are not. Seb made the weirdest comment yesterday to me " mom some of the kids in my class don't believe in Santa, they think it mom and dad who sneak out and bring the presents,"
me " it's OK for kids to not believe."
him" oh but I still believe, cause I know you and dad are broke."
okay so I felt small and still I thought well keeping believing . Now I will feel doubly bad if Santa can't deliver...

Tattoos and Halloween

2009-11-10T10:46:00.000-08:00

WOW has the past few months flown bye, before we know it, it will be a New Year!
October was filled with Andy coming home starting a new job, Tattoo's and fall pictures , our anniversary Halloween and my birthday.

This month is off to a busy start too,

Sebastian had an unexpected surgery on the 4Th to fix " his man hood" and he is healing up great but having a hard time keeping him from running around and not Pull any stitches...I was floored when the DR said he needed surgery to fix this and was not expecting them to schedule it so quick to. Sebastian was nervous for the week before, but he was a trooper and did quite well.. and I manage to hold it together while in the waiting room. I was more stress out when they told me he needed to have surgery then I was waiting for him to recover. He still walking around funny, but we are so proud of him for being brave.

I am trying to get my Care giver Certification so far I have put 4 hours into the class, and with any luck will finish the Class this Saturday with hopes of finding a job.

Trying to plan a yard sale around all this.. and now my mom is back in the Hospital.. One would think after dealing with all I have dealt with in the pass this was just get easier when a whole bunch of Shiz-ness pops up in our face, but nope here I am all stress out about it all, when there not much I can do about it.

Plus now my car has decided to start falling apart on me .. and the month has just started I Can wait to see what else this month is going to put on my plate..

Jobs

2009-10-13T14:58:00.001-07:00

The past year I have been a stay at home mom and doing odd jobs, working for my uncle posting web ad's and doing office work for him, taking photos, working as a temp data entry,plus what ever I can pick up.
Today I have a job interview with a company I don't know much about but it a job doing here by the house, I think it might be phones sales, I really hope not but it's an interview and I m going....

Pumpkin Patch Photo's

2009-10-11T16:24:00.000-07:00

I am going to be up in town on Thursday the 15 taking pictures of kids at the Pumpkin farm off of Baseline and Gilbert in Mesa around 10 am and 11...
If you like to bring your kiddo up ..

Happy birthday Sebastian!

2009-10-08T18:12:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Sebastian!

How the time fly's... you are now eight! wow is all I can say and what a trip it has been so far...

Seb's party was fun I invited he whole class, but out of the 26 students I got eight confirms which is about the same as last time. His party was a last min thing since I wasn't sure how I was going to manage it all by my self.. in the end I ended up with plenty of help.

( this is my Godmother Anita and my mom)

My Godmother came into town and surprise us! I haven't seen her since Seb was very little.. I am glad I got to see her and she was happy to see the kids and meet Odessa for the first time, Every one says Dess is the split image of her Mommy when I was little.

( this is Loretta and Seb)

My Friend came up from Tucson and was going to set up telescopes and show the kids Jupiter and it 's moons but it ended up being to cloudy, We are making plans to have her come back up again hope fully it won't be cloudy.

Changes in the weather

2009-10-08T18:05:00.000-07:00

In my last blog I had stated that a change was coming, not just for us personally, but the whole world going through a new change with our new President.

I was talking about mainly our personal changes here. I knew something was coming but wasn't sure on it at the time. We have many things taking a new course in our lives yet again, an I am not sure which way it will take us. Andy coming home permanently he finally got fed up with the Company and being away from his family, So on the 12 he will be starting a new job back in Tempe it's less pay but he will be home. This has left me with a Big stress on finding a job.

We got our new mortgage payment coming up soon too, they weren't able to reduce the payment to what we wanted but if I find a job it just might be do able.

A Storm Coming

2009-09-21T07:46:00.000-07:00

Today like always was hard for me to get up and out of bed, but the kids are cleaned up and dress ready to face the school world on time :).

I found it nice out this morning cooler, you can tell that Autumn is just around the corner. Change is coming yet again, and sometime we can get a foreshadow of this change and other times we don't. Along with Autumn this brings on Birthdays and Anniversary next month, and when I take time to stop and really think about it it get a bit depressing for me.

Sebastian going to be eight, again just like last year I find myself asking where has the time gone? Just the other day it seem like he was running around in diapers with a hockey stick in his hand, now you can find him with a video game and oversize pants.
Another Change coming up Turing 31! I just got use to the idea of being 30, and not much has change with me since my last birthday, my hair gotten longer and cut and I have lost and regain weight.

The one thing that has not change much is the house, I fear to do anything to the house because why waste the time or money if you going to have to sell... Yep we are about in the same boat as we were last year with the house.
I find myself riding the sea's of calm just before the storm... not knowing which way it's going to go..
Since March when Andy was laid off, we have been trying to get the mortgage re modified, but since we fell behind on payments due to the lack of employment our only options were to sell or turn the house over, so we were told. I find it funny that I hear people saying, the mortgage companies don't want your house they want to help you keep it. Well I think my mortgage company miss that memo!
Since HUD was to busy to help us I look to an out side Company Since April - May-ish they have been working with us, they work and deal with the mortgage companies for us, and let me tell you they have been having a very difficult time too. So we have been waiting...... and waiting...
We have gotten letters saying that the house will go up for Auction in October, but wait are they allowed to do that since we are still in negotiations?

Riding the tide..... we haven't had much luck as of late and I can't say that we are due for something good to come our way it would be a nice break, but there still room for things to go either way like the storm. Change is coming one way or the other, not just for us but for the whole world.... will we be ready to meet this change head on? But for now I will just ride it out.

New C's posting

2009-09-19T17:24:00.000-07:00

I posted new Fall pictures on my other pages, When I got nothing to do and my kids are board we take photo's. Dessa turning out to be the little model.

TB Quote

2009-09-15T18:12:00.001-07:00

This has to be one of my favorite quote from Season 2 true blood

It"s Sunday

2009-09-13T17:50:00.003-07:00

Playing around with photo shop when I should be folding clothes. No I do not want to fold that big pile over there..... ugh.................................

True Blood Fans

2009-09-08T15:56:00.000-07:00

I found this picture this link has some great pictures

Labor Day weekend

2009-09-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

Just to lazy to transfers pictures to my other computer and photo shop a new header.
But since Andy was home this week end I grab a chance to snap a few new family pictures.
Check out my Face book page no double postings.

Saturday was great! I woke up to the rain and my hubby, which is always nice. We took are time getting ready and went to Phoenix to the Tattoo Fest! It was fun and the kids had a great time. I bought some new ink and I am hoping I can get to tatting again.

We had lunch at Joe's crab shack! which is a first for us and enjoyed the crab nachos! Later we drove to Maricopa to see a friend that we haven't seen in four years, it was like we never lost touch. We came home and crashed. I hated to wake up on Sunday cause that meant out time was over and Andy had to head back up to Las Vegas for another week.

Up coming Events:

October 3 Sebastian 8 th birthday( not sure what I am doing yet)

October 22 Our 9 anniversary I would like to plan an outing with all my family and friends at a sports bar! But this will be a last min thing.

October 31 Ah Halloween and My 31 !

Some where I like to arrange a night out and go to some Haunted houses the Scream park or the Fear Farm even the pumpkin patch out at (Schnapp) farms would be nice

Frusrated !! ( warning this is a vent blog)

2009-09-02T12:30:00.000-07:00

Taking care of two kids and trying to work a part time sucks! Not that working sucks or taking care of the kids it's just my situation that stinks. Here I am Married but living the life of a single parent. When my kids are sick which they have been since school started with sinus and allergies , I don't have anyone to watch them. Andy up in Vegas most of the time and every one else is either working or lives 45min away. So I have to stay home with them, not a good thing when your starting a new job even if it is only temporary!

Now on top of things I came down with a ear infection, I stood up yesterday morning and fell right over, Kind of funny it was like I was drunk with out all the benefits of drinking. I did not think it was wise of me to drive the 35 miles into work when I could barely stand up right or walk, let alone drive.

Todays not much better and waiting to see a doctor to tell me what I already know.

I started this job on the 10 of Aug and so far I have missed 3 days of work which stinks because it makes me look bad and it's only a temp job! Who knows how much longer I will have a job.

Another thing that stinks is Andy got offered one of his old jobs back down here, but with out me working a steady job he can't take it.... This just bugs me!

If I could only find something like a data entry job thats not a scam from home or something in the time frame I need to be able to care for the kids. I really am sick of living life like a single parent, But this is what we got ourselves into!

Ok so I am getting off my soap box I just needed to vent. Venting on Andy does me no good anymore.

Ok so what I ment to post was the pictures I took of Dessa in her new clothes..

You might have seen these already since I post them on many different sites, but oh well you can enjoy them again, they just make me smile.

It's Sunday !!

2009-08-30T17:08:00.000-07:00

Yes it is Sunday!!! I looked forward to Sunday cause even though the next day is Monday and I have to get up at 6 Am the one thing I don't have to do is keep my kids busy all day long!

I love my kids and hate being away from them, but since I am around them 24/7 with out any time to my self I like it when there at school, No MOM she did this or he hit me, or the constant whining I have been dealing with lately.

But beside that the one and only show I get to watch is on Sunday night and this is the 2nd to last episode for the season ;(

Saturday I took the kids out and spent my paycheck on them, I bought them new clothes and took them to see " shorts".
Dessa of course wanted to have her picture taken with her new clothes.. enjoy
I am glad Dessa Loves having her picture taken.

New Phone

2009-08-28T21:42:00.000-07:00

I decided to go check out new cell phones, just because I can. We have a free upgrade on one of our lines and before Andy uses it and gets yet another phone I thought I check them out first.
I don't up grade my cell phone very often I usually wait until my phone stops working or I drop calls all lot before I upgrade.

While I was there Seb started bugging me about wanting a phone for him self yet again.
I left with a new phone and a unset 7yr cause he didn't get a phone and he wasn't' happy with my answer. I told him he had to wait until he was at least in 7th grade.

Board just passing the time

2009-08-22T14:00:00.000-07:00

Here's a few pictures I took the other day of myself.

jobs

2009-08-19T16:10:00.000-07:00

I have had many jobs in the past years but I have found the ones I enjoy the most are one where I have close friends to work with.
Nothing makes going to a job we don't care for much if we have something to look forward too.

When people I enjoy working with quits, I start to loose an interest in my job, I like making friends with my co-workers, but having close friends or family just make the job more fun. More and more companies are hiring more family and friends because they realize people will stay longer..

What a week!

2009-08-16T19:17:00.000-07:00

School started for the kids on the 1oth and I did say kids.
Dessa started kinder this year and I have to say that her first week went well. We had a few clothing issues in the morning, she doesn't understand why she has to wear shorts under her dresses, we went rounds one morning. She loves her teacher at least for now. I feel bad that I only got to walk her to class one day, I walked Sebastian his for a few months. She got her big brother to walk her to her playground in the morning.
Seb in 2nd grade this year and so far so good he came home with a warning for talking on the second day, but that to be expected.

I started a part time temp job on Monday as well, which is the first time I have worked outside of the house in over a year and a half. I have some issues I have been trying to work around, since the job up in town and not having anyone to drop the kids off, I am glad the company willing to be flexible with my hours. I barely get back in time to pick up the kids.

But this is just a temp job for now and we are still hoping something better will come Andy way or mine. If I could only find a data entry to do from home where I don't have to spend money on to do the job.
Andy was able to come home on Thursday and like always time was to short to do everything we needed to do,One of these days we will actually get to do out just the two of us.

So one can hope that week two will be better.

Newest Book

2009-07-27T18:37:00.000-07:00

OK so I have been reading about a book a day the latest book series is....
Charliane Harris ( sookie stackhouse books) or better known as true blood.
The TV show is base off the book but they are nowhere the same, the TV show twist some of the plots.

I have read the most recent in the series if you love Twilight I suggest these books
Dead Until dark, Living dead in Dallas, Club dead, Dead to the World, Dead as a Doornail, Definitely dead, All together dead, From dead to worst and Dead and Gone

There will be at least one more book in this series but it won't be out until May of 2010, to long to wait.

I am waiting the releases of Temped in October in the HON series,
and Echo of the bone from the out lander series out in October as well

Another book to look out for which I am waiting to read to Blood and Chocolate

Beating summer Boardom with books

2009-07-14T13:32:00.000-07:00

Since Andy has gone back to Vegas I feel like I have been trap inside the house.
To tell the truth I have been stuck only leaving the house to go to the store when needed.
Why? for a few reasons:

The main number one reason is that I can't afford to go anywhere and second I have no social life, everyone I know lives about 30 miles away and they can't afford to come see me and I can't go see them. The kids don't have many friends on the neighborhood and our neighbors like to keep to them selves. It been to hot to take the kids to the park and when I do there never any other kids there for them to play with.

So I have been reading here the latest list of books I recommend:
if you love the Twilight series check these out

House of night series : Marked, Chosen, Untamed, Hunted

Mortal instrument series: City of Bones, City of Ash, City of Glass

Busy, Busy, Busy

2009-06-25T17:58:00.000-07:00

Well sorry guys I have been a M.I.A .
Things are a bit crazy around the house lately, with Andy getting laid off and both of us looking for work. Andy managed to find a job working security here by the house, I have been running around trying to deal with mortgage companies and fighting Long term care for my mom.

Plus all my other "mommy" duties I haven't had much to talk about.
This week Andy got the call back to his other job, so he will be going back to work in Vegas this weekend, so now we been trying to get things situated around here. I am looking forward to taking things on my own again, but we need this.

To take my mind off of the " Real World" I have been reading new book series again, it another teen book but there not bad. The House of Night series:
Marked, Betrayed, Chosen, untamed, hunted

Yep another Vamp series but they have there own twist on things. Not bad

I have updated my other site with the New tattoo pictures check it out it will also be posted on my note on face book too.

Well off the do more chores

Dog days Of summer

2009-06-14T20:56:00.001-07:00

Not much has been going on and nothing much worth Blogging about, but I hope to have something soon.

New Pictures

2009-05-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

I am feeling much better today then I have since Sunday, Sinus infection and strep don't mix!

I couldn't stand Sebastian long hair any longer so I got out the razor and trimmed it my self. I have to admit I m not going to start cutting hair but I did not do to bad of a job.

I felt bad that the other day I took a bunch of pictures of Dessa and not Seb, but he wasn't in the mood for pictures.

Today I gave him no choice after getting him to play around I snap a few good pictures of him, and of course Dessa wouldn't be happy unless she got to take some too! I was able to get a few great ones of them both of them.

The Video the resolution of the pictures was reduce so the quality of the pictures look a bit fuzzy but there all good in full Resolution.

Video post of photos'

2009-05-07T20:53:00.000-07:00

Lets see if this works

Wonder Woman& Super man awards

2009-05-07T18:05:00.000-07:00

We as people tend to take on way to many things at one time, and it ceases to amaze me how much a person can handle or push or limits to where we feel like breaking, but manage to survive through it.

In this case I decided to do the Wonder Woman Award and The Superman Award. Don't be surprise to find these guys popping up on your pages.

New Photo shoot

2009-05-05T22:22:00.000-07:00

Hey I took some new photo's for Mother's day and Dessa birthday check them out on my other Page!

Needing Ideas Please

2009-04-30T20:39:00.000-07:00

I need to start working on my Art and getting myself in a more Creative mood.

I am asking for Ideas or perhaps, stuff to draw up, even if you don't want any tattoo's done just send me ideas my way please...

What's For Dinner

2009-04-29T20:34:00.000-07:00

WE found this really great place here in CG! Easy Dinner Solutions
They have a menu of 14 different meals you can choose from and plenty of sides, for the price of buying all the food you get a meal pre-prep all you do is take it home and fix it!.

It is great i just love this place
Last week we had pulled pork sandwiches, Chicken Tortilla and potatoes, sweet and spicy steak,
and pecan pork roast, um.

This is a great for us since I am bad a planning meals we always end up having the same old stuff every week.

Faith , Trust, and Hope

2009-04-28T09:13:00.000-07:00

One must learn to have Faith , Trust, Hope in times like these.

Easier said then done, at least for me it is. Trying not to worry about what going to happen and have Faith that we will get through this like we have in the past, but in the past jobs were abundant and we had at least one income coming in.

We are doing the best we can and holding off as long as we can, but time is running out, I know if things go badly we will have a place to live somewhere, but facing the hard fact of finally turning over what we have been struggling to hang on to for Three years now is hard to give up the fight.

Faith that all will work out in the end or something better will come along

Trust in the guidance and that help will be there when we have nothing left.

Hope that things will end up just the way we would like them to go.

I have been trying to believe that everything is going to be ok that Andy going to be getting a call soon to go back up to Vegas to work, and if not that then we will be getting a call for at least one interview.

We applied for Government assistance yesterday, we will be getting food assistance and health care for the family this is some relief, but I am still short on how we are going to keep THIS roof over our heads, then if not how long can we stay here. I HOPE until Seb out of school next month, I would really hate to pull him out of school for the last month.

I would love to be worrying about other things like , What to wear, or What fun thing we are going to do this weekend, or What color to paint the house , or even planning what to do with the backyard. It doesn't even make sense to me now to even worry about anything , because it all going to work out because I have Faith, Trust, and Hope so what's the point in worrying and making my self sick over something I don't have much control over, Yes I said much control over because I do have some control, but I can't control when or if I will get a job or even if the pay will be enough for us to survive on.

Yes this is pretty much me writing to myself to get myself to not give up what I believe in. There is a light under this tunnel we just can't see it yet, just wondering how much longer until we do?

Forgotten

2009-04-19T17:29:00.000-07:00

I had woken up to a wonderful blog to post about sleeping, I knew I should of written it down while I could still remember what I had come up with , but I didn't since this I have forgotten something that could of been great!

Turning 5!!

2009-04-15T22:29:00.000-07:00

In less then a month away Our baby girl will be turning 5!! and she has been counting down the days.

With things still up in the air with us I am not sure what I am doing for her, I do know that I will be having a little party down in CG! ( yes I know it's a long drive and the penny less ( us) can't afford to make ) Sorry guys we can't have it at are normal b-day place up in Tempe.

I am planning as of now to have it at one of the parks close by our house on March 16 after her actual b-day since it is so close to mothers day and other -days. I can't disappoint her now can I ?

Looking for a job

2009-04-13T20:38:00.000-07:00

Looking for a job can be stress full and stress spreads like a bad virus!

Andy and I have been looking and looking for a job, as the saving accounts dwindle and the jobs hunt feels like we are looking for a clear needle in a haystack, the stress levels fly up higher and higher.

The kids are starting to feel the stress and tempers flare. So we took one day to " distress" at the park, we loaded up the kids and my mom our Lab lady and pack a lunch and headed off to the park.

It was windy out and the park was empty!

This is the first time we have taken our lab to the park I was hoping she would dive right into the lake, but no I fear that the water was just a bit to cold for her. Andy dumped her in anyways.

Whats For Dinner??

2009-04-05T18:50:00.000-07:00

The age old question on our house. What's for dinner? and the answer it I don't know!
So I like to start a recipe trading online once a week post something new.
This Weeks is Jerk Chicken Tacos
This is one of my kids favorite twist on tacos
I take the can chicken fry it up in the Jamaican jerk sauce and top the the chicken off with a melted cream cheese for the kids and a Jalapenos cream cheese sauce if you want it to be a bit spicier

Pass weeks

2009-03-30T12:05:00.000-07:00

Two weekends ago we went took a mini trip to Tucson to see my friend and go to a book fair to see one of my favorite Authors and get a signed book.

Here are a few pictures from that day

We had a great time and I got to hear Dianna Gabledon speak about her books which I have never done before, plus my friend got a book signed for me.

What else has been going on? Sebastian received the PTSO student of the month award.

Andy been home for two weeks now just waiting for his boss to give him the news as when he might be going back to work or if he needs to be looking for a new one, cause right now we have no income coming in, I really hate myself right at this moment for not having a job.

Posting soon

2009-03-25T17:19:00.000-07:00

I will be posting more soon, I am trying to limit my computer time

Happy birthday Dad

2009-03-05T19:20:00.000-08:00

Last week on Feb 27 was my Dad's 59th birthday! He asked for no party this year so I manage to at least convince him to let us take him out for dinner! Next year we are having a party

Look at the kids they just love their Lil Grandpa, the bet is Sebastian will have out grown his papa by this summer!.

What Bugs me.... shh....

2009-03-02T23:05:00.001-08:00

I have been a little busy since my mom has been back. Trying to get all of her Access and health care and bank account change and transferred is so much fun. I should have the process down soon.

The Kids have both been sick yet again, Dessa had a double ear infection and seb had collapsed eardrums from pressure, plus the both are on breathing treatments now, How on earth did the Urgent Care Doc miss all this?

They are both doing much better now thanks goodness, and now I am just keeping my fingers cross that no one else comes down with anything, or at least until my mom get back on Insurance. So we have been couped up in the house for a week , last weekend I decided I had ,had enough the kids were fighting getting g on each others nerves and mine, so we went out for a Movie. There wasn't much showing as far as kids movies goes we went and seen Coraline, not recommended for lil ones scared my two they won't be playing with hand made dolls with button eyes anytime soon.

During the movie I realized what bugs me the most try watching a movie or enjoying quite time with two kids that can't sit still and a mother who can keep quite!

While she was living in backwards land I had gotten use to quite time, the kids would go off and play in the rooms and I could sit on my computer or read and just have quite.

My mom on the other hand can't stand the quite and will just yap about anything. I think I have finally got the hang of tuning her out . :)

All well here for now, the kids are on the mend and needing some time apart and I could use a hour or two to myself as well... Come home Andy!!!! and soon

Not one of our better weeks

2009-02-22T02:07:00.000-08:00

The kids have been sick with something , Sebastian had a cough that wouldn't go away and now dessa been running a fever off and on with some coughing which makes her sick, I took them and with the verdict of a simple cold, but it just doesn't make since. Dessa was fine today no fever or cough and then around 2 am she getting sick. I think it 's more then just a simple cold..

Earlier today Dessa wanted to show off her new hair style, we went and got it cut and she wanted it short since her hair is thin and doesn't grow very fast I agreed.

So I took the chance to play around with my new camera and got a couple very cute shots of the kids, I need to work on the focusing of the camera a bit and not having a back seat photographer ie.. Sebastian trying to shoot the picture for me LOL.

Since I am up

2009-02-21T01:01:00.001-08:00

It's 2 am and I am up yet again with a sick kiddo, Seb has a earache that I can't get rid of. So while I am up waiting for the pain med's to kick in I thought I post another Random photo.

This one was taken by my friend about 3 years ago

All we did was tell Dessa to give her brother a kiss and this was what we got! I have a Black and white version of this one too it's just too darn cute

Random Photo Fairy wings

2009-02-19T08:06:00.000-08:00

Fairy Wings Photo's

Since I do not have much to blog about I thought I do this random photo thing.. So I am just going to pick out a random photo to share

What a little fairy?

just a simple snap shot I took of Dessa last spring, I got bored one day and photo shop in the wings

this is dessa this Halloween in her fairy princess costume I threw together for her at the last min. I made the wings out of wire and shrink wrap.

This was a picture that I photo shop last year, what I do when I get bored.

Spring is in the Air

2009-02-19T07:58:00.000-08:00

New new new!!

Andy was home for four days yes i said four days! WOW that the most he has off in a long time so we spent the time together hanging out at home and not on the computer.

My mom is back in town and I have been busy getting all of her medical and transferred, what better way to spend the time together by spending hours in DES office.

The kids have been sick with a cough that I just can't get rid of so today we are going to go see the doctor because we Finally have medical insurance ! Since Andy company doesn't offer anything useful.

We got out tax return back and I have a choice to either buy a new camera or new tattoo machines.. I don't know which one yet but I do know that I am going to go get a hair cut!
I been hoping that soon I can do new family pictures the next time Andy will be home which sound like next week. Work has been slow for them up in Vegas in fact there doing there last job up there, and waiting to see if they got the bid for one more year and we have been waiting since December, but in the mean time he going to be applying for the boarder patrol, which will bring him closer to home.

My other home

2009-02-02T14:49:00.000-08:00

Andy playing with the kids at IHOP

Sebastian thinking very hard about something

And Dessa smiling for another picture! you can see that she found the scissors again

Our home away from home has been a hotel suite in Vegas the Sportmans suite just off of Tropicana. No it not on the Vegas strip far enough away from it.

I had to make a quick trip up to Vegas to take care of some paperwork that could not wait,

I found myself asking weren't we just here? it feels like we were.

We got in late Friday night we actually hadto go through searchlight because of a bus accident at the Dam. I feel so bad for the people on the bus.

Dinner at IHOP and then breakfast too. Andy doesn't keep food around his place to cook. Most of Saturday was spent waiting and playing rock band , Andy bowled later that night on his league , we had dinner with friends and then if was time for bed. Up early and off to home again Sunday. Just in time to catch the Super bowl game. ( Didnt we just leave ?)

It was like the trip never even happen and I had dreamt it all...

But here a just a few pix's of the Kids , with my mom back in town our trips to Vegas will be limited. Plus we are still waiting to see what the job situation is.. As of December we have been waiting on the City and the job bid. BF( Andy company) is on there last job up in Vegas and is waiting on the bid they made for the next one, since there is no work here in Phoenix they have to find it else where.

So we have been waiting and waiting to find out, they also have a bid up in California, but I am hoping that Andy will stay close to home.

With the economy the way it is we are glad that Andy still has a job for now...

What I have been spending my time on

2009-01-27T21:29:00.000-08:00

A while back I could never get ahold of Andy he was always busy on his computer or sleeping.

What was he doing? Playing world of warcraft , an online game. He convice me to buy the game and sign up. This was back in June. So I got the game just so I can chat with him and keep up to date with what was going on in Vegas. I never plan to get addicted to the game.

Since then I play when ever I have any free time and it's the only thing Sebastian talks about, he is addicted to but the game it a bit advance for him to really understand.

If you have seen my Face book page you will see something about hearthstone, it a app that lets you upload your toons from them game. I have about five of them now, my favorite is my half human half horse mage.

I am so addicted the game not as bad as Andy and a few others I know, but it's a good way to waste time or something do when you can't afford to do much and no one like to come visit you...

Here's is a few pictures I took off the game of my Mage Odessakin

Catching UP

2009-01-27T21:11:00.000-08:00

Soooo,

I have been to say the least not very motivated as of late and I haven't posted much

A few things have happen since the new year so here they are..

For new years we spent the week with Andy up in Vegas since he had to work, what a way to bring in the new year, but we did get to take the kids bowling. They had a great time

The first week back to school and Seb's school has a assembly and he got the principals honor roll for getting straight A's for the first two quarter's, We are so proud of him.

( not a very good pic, but sebthe one in the blue shirt on the end)

To reward the kids for being on there best Andy brought home Rock band last week and we all got to get our grove on. I must say I am two left hand and two left feet with no beat! What happen I use to be...

Next week we get to welcome my mom back to AZ! I hope this time around we will have a better handle on things..

That's it for now... until the next big thing happens to us

no new photos

2009-01-24T12:28:00.000-08:00

So Andy was home for two days I was hoping to grab him and get a new family photo, but again it decided to rain. I will take the rain any day. So I will be making a quick trip up to Vegas next weekend to get our taxes filed maybe just maybe we can get a quick picture in.
Where did the last two days go, time aways flies by when you want to go slowly.. Sometimes I wonder if it is worth it all.
I mean is it worth Andy living and working in another state just so we can have a house? Will it be worth it in the end or will we still end up having to sell the place. The house was our dream , but the question we find ourselves asking is it worth what we have to give up..

Right now I am very glad that Andy got a job and I don't want him to be with out one, but on the other hand...

Happy Jan 20 !

2009-01-20T12:06:00.000-08:00

I am so happy that the blog site is back up and I was able to get a new background, I hope that soon to come will be a new family picture. Which I have been trying to take since umm.. October.

My mom will be moving back as of the 4 of Feb and staying with us until something else becomes available. Besides all of our problems and issue, was I just suppose to let live on the streets since her sister and niece kicked her out too!!.

No Cute blog

2009-01-10T16:30:00.000-08:00

I can no longer get the cutest blog on the block link to update my background, any one else having this problem.?

December

2009-01-07T17:23:00.000-08:00

Andy was able to come home on Christmas Eve, we stayed home and had a nice simple time together. Christmas was a first for us this year, it was only us and the kids for the first time since we have been married.

It was the just the four of us, no waiting on anyone to open presents, or to fix dinner, it was nice and strange at the same time.

We went over to my Uncles house and had a very nice dinner, turkey , apple spice roast, home made potatoes and other goodies, we played Apple to Apples and I got buzzed!( I rarely drink).

On the 28 we all left for Las Vegas together, Andy had to be back at work, So to spend the new year together we all went. I still spent most of New years eve alone, because Andy had to work that night, but it was either spend it here alone or there.

We went up to mount Charles and played in the snow, we actually got a sled for the kids. Sorry no pictures I was busy playing in the snow. Course we all caugth colds again!

Now we are home and back to the routine, Andy up in Vegas. All the decorations are down and my room is empty.

Getting ready for My mom to come back to AZ in Feb, waiting to see how this is going to play out.

I can't wait to get back out and take some new pictures

Mobility Equipment promotion

2008-12-22T16:47:00.000-08:00

I am promoting a family business. A mobility equipment store here in Mesa, They buy ,sell , rent, and repair mobility equipment Like 3- 4 wheel scooters, power chairs , walkers shower seats..

If you know anyone that is in need . Please send them here.
I am working on getting the website up and running, I will post a link to the site once it up

Notice the phone number on the Add wrong Opp's is 480-615-6466

Wishing it felt more like winter

2008-12-19T21:26:00.000-08:00

Boy it been warm out! we had a few days of cold and rain, but it just didn't last long enough.
Las Vegas got snow the first time in a while I been told. I so wanted to go and play in it. I like snow I just don't like being cold :)

So school out for the holiday and the school to my surprise ended it with a one holiday show.
The kids sang Christmas songs, Seb was so cute too bad that I couldn't get a good picture of him.
I am surprise that the school only did one show, and so far there been no plays or anything.

When I was in Elementary school when we did any type of singing the show was in the evening and one during the day, plus we had at least one musical play a year..

The school only 3yrs old so hopefully they will get around to more events..

holiday Pictures

2008-12-18T19:47:00.000-08:00

Christmas Photo's

So last weekend I took the kids out , the plan was to take some Christmas pictures.

That was the plan but it was so windy out and that I could not find a place that strike me as Holiday.

I manage two nice pictures and then ran into Santa! It's not the Same big guy that I would of love to have pictures done with , but sadly enough the kids grandpa no longer plays Santa any more.

Holiday Traditions

2008-12-11T17:18:00.000-08:00

For quite some time now I have been thinking that I don't really have any real Holiday traditions. Today I came to a conclusion on this thought that I never thought of before today. I do have a Holiday tradition, for the past I don't even know how many years I have been the one to put up the tree and all the trimmings and most of the time by myself.

Back when my parents started working for the BIG Guy in the red suit oh about 20 yrs ago they got too busy to put up the tree( cause we always use a fake one) they were always busy from Thanksgiving up to Christmas Eve some times even on Christmas day!
My dad would pull all the stuff down and if they had time help assemble the tree, but as I got older I was the one to do it.

Since I have been married for a few yrs Andy was around to help, but for the past three yrs now it has yet again been up to me.. the kids get bored after a few mins.
We have two trees now a little one for the kids and a big one( after over 10 yrs this tree is seeing it's last Christmas) . What a Holiday tradition to have huh?

Technical problems

2008-12-08T00:03:00.000-08:00

Technical problems..
I have two computers my main one and a laptop. My main one is on it last leg this is the second time it has decided to just crash on me . I had a friend come and look at it and it got some type of hard ware problem with the cd drive, bummer I can;'t burn my files onto cd's now. I get to go invest in more flash drives and pull all my files off. The poor thing is on it last legs. Thank goodness I have the laptop as a back up but it runs on VISTA and I am not sure I can install some of my programs on it since there all windows xp compatible..

I how I wish I had a MAC...

Thanksgiven

2008-12-03T12:49:00.001-08:00

I hope that everyone had a nice and Happy Thanksgiving, Stuff yourselves full of good and yummy food. Ok I hope you did not stuff your self too full.

We had a nice and very simple T-day! Since Andy and his Uncle had to work the kids and I drove up to Las Vegas to share the holiday. What I am thankful for portable DVD players, I could not survive the six hour drive with out it. Ok I could survive but it no picnic!

Try cooking a 12lbs turkey in a very small oven one that barely fits the turkey! Yep that what we did, Andy and his uncle lives in a two bedroom hotel extended stay suites the ones that have a small refrigerator and stove.
The dinner came out nice and the five of us had a nice dinner together.
It rained most of the time we were there, but we did get out and I got to finally see Twilight while the kids Uncle Jimmy took them to see Bolt!
That was about all we did do, Saturday we walked around the mall just for something to do. Saturday night we all went and saw Christmas lights while enjoying a horse and buggy ride.
Dessa fell asleep in Andy lap for the last part of it.
Over all we had a nice time, but we are glad to be home again.

You Do What???

2008-11-24T12:10:00.000-08:00

What I do during the day!!

Do you ever Wonder what I do all day here's a few picture's

Halloween Pictures

2008-11-24T12:07:00.000-08:00

Since I am starting over I am just posting pictures for now..

Creative Writings Draft

2008-11-24T11:56:00.000-08:00

This is something I been working on .. I have posted some of it on here but have added and made changes. Please feel free to let me know what you think or sugguestions to improve the story or settings..
My husband wanted me to find a hobby so I had joined one of the medieval re-enactment groups. This year I was attending the Festivities of the year.It was late the first night and the festivities had been going on strong. I had gotten upset at my husband for not being attentive to our two children. Our three year old had wondered off, I was lucky to have found her crying nearby one of the vendor's shops. I had lost my temper and so did he; I was not the type of person who enjoyed having our personal business being broadcast out in the public." Fine! You go ahead and go home but I am staying for the rest of the event" I had stamped off back to the campsite. After seven years of marriage, we had begun to fight more often. I had spent the past six months staying at home with the kids while he was off playing the big money maker working in another state. Rarely getting anytime to myself five minutes the max, I was mommy 24 hours a day seven days a week. "Humph!" as I sat down by the camp, all I had wanted was a few hours to myself not having to worry about the kids. My two monsters were my life, every decision I had made in my life and will involved around my two children. They had been my saviors at some of the rockiest times of my life. I grab the bottle of spice rum I had brought hoping for some time with my husband and popped the bottle open. "What am I going to do? " I had asked myself. This was not the 'good time' I had planned for this weekend. Lady Liza had come stumbling across my path and trip on my foot, not seeing me. I reached out and helped her up she on the other hand was having a very good time.
" Oh I am sorry dear, thank you." as I helped her get things sorted out. " Why this has to be one of the best feast planned, are you enjoying yourself my lady?" " Yes " I mumble.
I could tell she did not believe me. " Really? And where is your family?" she grabbed my hand and pulled me over to sit down by her tent which was just a few feet away." Never mind, you don't have to talk about it, come sit by me and I will read the cards for you." she was pulling a deck of tarot cards out of her pockets.
Well that had been very interesting I never had my cards read, and not much of it had made sense to me " be careful of what you wish for tonight it may come true" she had said.
I had decided to walk off some of my anger and headed for the trees. Here I was twenty-nine years of age and not much to show for myself. I had given up my pursuit for and art career early on in our marriage, All I did have was one caring little boy and a spiteful little girl and a broken marriage.
I had found a nice secluded spot and sat down by a big red wood tree. I could just barely see the stars. I sighed and took another big swig of rum. I normally did not drink, and when I did it was usually a mixed drink with very little Alcohol. However, I was beyond the last of my nerves and thought what the hell. " I wish I could be anywhere else or another time."
When I had awaked, it had taken me some time to realize where I was. The sun was just beginning to rise. I sat up a bit too quickly "umm" and put a hand to my head as the world began to spin. I had never been drunk in my life and I was starting think that this could be my first. After the trees stop spinning around me, I had found the half-empty bottle of rum lying on its side. Well I guess I should get the day over with and head back to camp for I was starting to feel a sick and wanted nothing but to curl up in my warm sleeping bag.Perhaps, I wonder that my husband did leave then again I was thinking that my husband would have blown off steam and had gone back to the tent, but why had he not come looking for me?
"Oohh" too much thinking this early, the ground started to spin again. All I wanted right now was to lie down in the warm tent next to my kids. Still dress in my best gown for the opening ceremonies and introduction of the royal court last night, I had wanted to change as well. My dress was of faux purple velvet and I was very proud of the fact that I had sewn it my self, I did not wish to ruin the dress just yet.
I started to think that I just might have slept through the whole event, but surely some one would of either notice that I was missing or would of stumble upon me. I felt like I had been walking all lot longer then I should have been and I was not coming near the campsite. I had not walked too far into the trees lastnite.
Okay maybe I had too much to drink and went in further or came out on a different side. This was easily solved I would just find my cell phone and call one of the members of the group. I pulled out my pouch and found my phone. The phone was dead no dates or time showing no signal at all and I remember I had plenty of signals last night strange I had thought. So calling someone was out of the question. Therefore, I decided to walk in the direction where I thought the campsite should have been. A road would lead to the park ranger outpost once there I could use a phone.
I must have walked for over an hour and no sign of a road or the campsite, I was starting to feel oddly scared, and hungary. I was not sure, what to do by this time I sat down I could feel the tears building up inside me. "This is no time to start getting emotional we need to keep a clear mind" A few deep breaths and I was in some control over my emotions. I still had some rum left and was feeling thirsty , but the thought of it made my stomach turn. The sun was high in the sky it must be about noon I thought. I was not much of an outdoors person and could remember little survivor tips.
I could remember was you could get water from a cactus but there was no cactus around here. "If I stay in one spot some one bound to find me", but being out here in the open was not going to do me any good either I thought. I got up and started walking back the way I had come. I had managed to find my way back to the edge of the forest and looked around. I gather up some wood to keep myself busy and my mind off from wondering too much on negative thoughts. I knew that I could at least get a fire going if needed. I was happy to have found the book of matches in my bag. I had spent the rest of the day by a fire and thinking of possibilities of what had happen. My crazy mind had come up with the thought that I fell through a time gap and I was now in another time. I laughed at myself for this thought. If I start believing that then I had truly lost my mind and I was still in a drunken sleep.
The sun had begun to set when I saw them. I could just barely see group of people off in the distance on horses. Could spending the day without water or food make me delusional? No not yet a person can go longer then a day and still stay sane. There were three of them on horseback for what I could see.As they came closer and I had seen the way they were dressed I concluded that I was having a very vivid dream or I was no longer in the 21 century.Three young men no older then twenty all dress in the 16-century renaissance where they part of my group.? The tallest for I could tell had on a blue vest and cream top and black pants and fine leather boots. He had the look of a man in deep upsetting thought. His face was square and cut rough short brown hair for what I could see as they approached. I thought even if he were to smile he would still look upset the next one was shorter and was bald and a young baby face but he had one of those trusting smiles. The last of the men was of darker skin and could have been foreign oval face longer darker hair.
They all came to a stop just about a foot away. "Good evening milady, it's getting dark for a lady of your stature to be out here alone?" Better to play it safe and give them the impression I was not alone. "Good evening gentlemen, I was wondering around and seem to have gotten lost I am sure my campsite around here, the rest of my party must be near here looking for me." With a slight smile of embarrassment, I bowed. By the look of confusion I got back from the men, I took a small step backwards and smiled."Well then you are in luck my brothers and I are on are way to the Seaport we would be pleased to help you find your traveling companions. I am Andres and my brothers (pointing to the bald one) Jacopo, and Daniel( the one who looked like he wasn't getting things his way)
Andres was getting off his horse he had to be at least six feet tall and slender but look as if he could pick up his horse. As the other two got off there horses I wonder brothers? With different parentage, for they only had the same color eyes green. Jacopo was the shortest of the three, and Daniel was even taller then Andres, all very slender men but you could tell they had seen hard labor. Daniel had drew my attention back " what might be your name lady ? "
Right a name and before thinking I gave them my role name" Cherie de Liencourt" Andres was giving me a hand up to set me upon his horse before I could protest. Now I knew no one at the feastival had horses who were these men?
Andres mounted up behind me." Well then Cherie it is getting dark perhaps we should be off and help you find your campsite."
After a few hours of riding and the sun had set, there was no campsite; to be seen. "Perhaps they move on to the seaport?" suggested Jacapo.
They begun asking me questions like where was I heading, with no real answers the brothers began to question my story. My stomach was in knots and my head was swimming with confusion where I was? I found myself thinking just a bit to loudly that this was a very bad rum induce dream, but I was beginning to think that it was not. Could I have fallen asleep in the 21 century and woke up in a whole other time? I was alone and in danger and I could tell that the brothers could tell the same I had to do something but what?I had caught Jacopo attention, which I had no means of doing within minuets he was up and walking over to the tree where I was sitting.Handing me a piece of bread Jacopo sat down near me." It has seem that perhaps your party had moved on they might have gone to the town nearby, we are heading there in the morning." Out of the three, I felt that I could trust Jacopo. However, I still wanted to keep my distance.There was a frost in the air when I woke I was feeling the few hours of riding taking an affect on me. It had been years since I was on a horse and my muscles were not use to it let alone camping on the cold hard ground. My idea of' roughing it' was a tent and a ton of blankets and a air mattress. Again, I found myself mounted up on the horse with Andres behind me. With the lack of sleep I was finding it very hard to stay awake and on the horse. Andres has to tighten his grip on me, which brought me even closer if that was possible. Either Andres was missing his lover or simply put I was rubbing him the wrong way and I was not enjoying the effect it was having. I was too eager to get off the horse and walk."No milady it will take longer this way" smirking Andres assisted me back onto his horse.The costal town of ,well it was more then just a colony with a small port and a few boats docked.I recognized the citizens to be Native Americans and Spanish. Oh, I was starting to feel very sick and the lump in my throat I had been trying to ignore got five times bigger."Please just leave me here, I am sure my party will be coming this way, "I could tell that my pleas were being ignored. Andres insisted that Daniel would stay with me while they asked about. Daniel was the youngest of the three and with little protest had stayed. Younger he might be, but I could tell that I could not out run him and where was there to run when I did not even know where or when I was.
We found a small inn that at least had a fire and some food. Daniel kept to himself most of the day but left one eye on me.Two days had pass before Andres and Jacopo had return and accompanied by a guest. They neither found nor heard of any party traveling this way.Jacopo had approached me from behind and gently gripped my arm. "This is our friend and Capitan of that lovely ship out there. He has been here for a few days and had not seen or heard of this party of yours." I was going to be sick and not a word would come out of my mouth to help me. The Captain of theirs was defiantly the rugged type he was big and burly and not that great to look at. "Ahh milady Cherie de Liencourt you are a long way from home are you not? You would be French?"I wanted to run, I wanted to shout but I could not manage both my legs had turn to jelly and my voice was stuck under that lump in my throat. Jacopo had tightened his grip on my wrist. " Since there seem to be no one about to claim you perhaps we will have better luck in France," The men where all smiling at this. This was not good not good at all. I felt a shove in the direction of the door and just then, I found my voice." Oh no, I could not impose on your kindness, no I am here to meet my fiancé and my family would be greatly upset if I did not return" That was not what I intended to say and I could tell by the expression on the men faces I had only made my situation worst.
On the boat of Despair
Once on the boat and locked in the captain quarters for my own safety from the crew. I was frantic and panic ran through my body, I was in trouble. Worst of all… at that moment a rat scurried across my foot. I screamed and ran into a chair knocked over a bottle. A golden liquid splashed onto the floor the scent of it sent my stomach in knots, rum .. Rum it was rum that had gotten me into this mess, that night was the first time I had ever been drunk and found myself wishing to be somewhere or anywhere else. Her words echoing in my mind came floating back to me" be careful of what you wish for tonight for it might come true".
I screamed and pound my fist on the door." I wish I was home! I wish I was home! "
I collapsed in the corner away from the direction the rat had ran and closed my eyes wishing I was home with children and husband and fell into a dark hole.

C's Illusions webpage is up

2008-11-24T11:54:00.000-08:00

http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vY3NpbGx1c2lvbnMtY2hhcmxpLmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbS8=

Starting all over

2008-11-24T11:42:00.000-08:00

Since I could not get rid of my freaky Image header I have decided to clean up and remove the whole Blog and start over!
A new year is just around the corner and now a new blog!

Charli and Kids

On my mind

past year

My beautiful birthday girl

On this day May 8th 2011

BW ten min's from Home challenge

Before and afters

Hands

Self portrait

FOCUS

Random Photos from my Phone Friends

My best friend, my soul mate, my love...

Photo5

Random Photo: 4

Random Photo's

Random Photos from my Phone

Random Photos from my Phone

Simple things I miss

What a Busy week !!

New Year

Hey Wait is it Mom's Vacation time ??

Where Have I been ?

Unplanned

All Hallows Eve

Birthdays, birthdays and more

not forgotten

Many changes

New friends

movie

Birthdays, baptism

IT's Been a while

Need a good home help

Coming to terms

BA Humbug!!

Tattoos and Halloween

Jobs

Pumpkin Patch Photo's

Happy birthday Sebastian!

Changes in the weather

A Storm Coming

New C's posting

TB Quote

It"s Sunday

More TB Post Pictures

True Blood Fans

Labor Day weekend

Frusrated !! ( warning this is a vent blog)

It's Sunday !!

New Phone

Board just passing the time

jobs

What a week!

Newest Book

Beating summer Boardom with books

Busy, Busy, Busy

Dog days Of summer

New Pictures

Video post of photos'

Wonder Woman& Super man awards

New Photo shoot

Needing Ideas Please

What's For Dinner

Faith , Trust, and Hope

Forgotten

Turning 5!!

Looking for a job

Whats For Dinner??

Pass weeks

Posting soon

Happy birthday Dad

What Bugs me.... shh....

Not one of our better weeks

Since I am up

Random Photo Fairy wings

Spring is in the Air

My other home

What I have been spending my time on

Catching UP

no new photos

Happy Jan 20 !